Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 4: 6-8
Today, I join the ranks of mothers everywhere sending their children off to school for another year. As much as I am excited about this day, it is bittersweet. For three years, I treasured homeschooling two of my children (before that, all 3 of them attended private school). Now, my middle schoolers are catching the big yellow bus with backpacks slung over their shoulders and offering me a smile goodbye. My oldest begins another year of high school, and that means college is a year closer. Be still my heart.
I’m transitioning all over again – finding my place in the world. I will have to get used to being without my kids during the day; to the quiet – which has its pros and cons.
As mixed as I feel about our new phase of life (happy for them & sad for me) I must choose which attitude I will wear today as real as I choose my clothes. I choose to look at the good in the day. The sad moments will come, and that’s okay. But, I can’t live in the sadness. God has given me too much to be joyful about that deserves to be celebrated. So, I’ll let the tears fall, but I am turning my eyes and ears to what are His gifts of joy which are meant to be enjoyed. I will unwrap each of them them slowly, thoughtfully and hold them close to my heart. And I will be thankful in all things.
Blessings I count today…
* God is with me every step on this amazing journey of parenthood. He is always caught up to my life, so at any moment I can talk to Him and know He gets it.
* My children are healthy and have an opportunity for a great education.
* They are excited about school.
* God’s provision to send them with new school supplies. We are grateful.
* My sweet husband understands this is a tricky time for me and accepts that moodiness comes with the territory.
* My dog that will shadow me because she will miss them almost as much as I do.
* Finishing projects that have waited for years for attention.
* Caring for my family.
* Caring for others.
* My 2 new neighbors, who have quickly become new friends – invited me on a walk after everyone left for the day. Fun!
* All of my friends and time to catch up with them. They have been so tender toward me with prayers, texts, FB, emails and conversations – knowing this school year is a new normal for me. I have the BEST friends in the entire world!!
* Knowing that not knowing who I am now is okay. Transition takes time.
* Leftover chocolate chip pancakes that I got up before sunrise to make today by special request.
* The smell of my perfume lingering in the bathroom from my daughter who wanted to wear a little today.
* The sound of jazz music still playing in the family room from my youngest son who wanted it to help calm his jitters.
* The aroma of homemade pasta sauce simmering for a “comfort food” meal tonight to celebrate the completion of the first day.
* So happy that I was able to slip Scripture into each of their notebooks for encouragement. I fell asleep too quickly last night to do it, but got it done between flipping pancakes and waking up those who overslept! (Scriptures I used – Philippians 4:13, Philippians 1:6 & Proverbs 3: 5-6)
* Tears of joy and sorrow
* New beginnings
* God’s peace that is beyond my understanding.
* Anticipating my children back in the nest at the end of the day.
* Sharing all of this with my husband, my best friend.
Yep. There is much to be excited about, and I don’t want to miss a second of any of it. Think I’ll go eat a pancake. And I will be thankful. 🙂